Tae In - Keu Namja E Keotjimal

I've been checking on Megurine Luka's MV's in youtube when I stumbled on this. A Korean song with Vocaloids? Hm sounds different. So I checked it out, and it turned out that she only done the dancings with Project Diva. Oh weell.. That's not my video anyway. Full credit to the owner



But I fell in love with the song~ I tried to search in Google, but it turned out zero.
After I tried to try a few more time, the problem is the title written is wrong. Not entirely wrong, but the others write it as ' Keu Namja E Keotjimal' and when I tried to search it, voila! I found this one link. Sadly the speed's slow, so I have to wait for some more time.

I reuploaded it on Mediafire >>here<<
Happy listening!

I'm Retarded

"I want to cry. I've told myself many times that you don't have to cry, you don't need to cry, you don't have the reason till you must cry. But in the end, all I want is an emotional release. I want to throw all of this problems away. I tried not to think about it, which I've said before(not here), "If it hurts to think about it, then don't think about it!" But we can't help to think about it, right?"

We all have problems, many, many problems. Yes, people said that problem is a spice in our life. But then, spice is used to make the food tastier, don't you think? Well, this world needs to be stabilized. Too many sweets in your mouth can make it bitter. Too many bitterness in your mouth will make you used to it. Everything in this world should be balanced. Of course, not all people agree with this. Sometimes they think that they have the biggest problem, and they shout to the world, saying that they're the most unlucky guy out there. I don't mean to seem rude, but FACE YOUR WORLD DEAR. The world isn't being so nice to you so you can start walking with your own feet. So you can solve your own problems. So you can move forward, with new experience to hold, new courage to stand. You will have the same amount of happiness and sadness in your lifes. Whether it happened immediately or in the long run, it doesn't matter. The wheel of life is rotating. Our Earth is rotating, revolutioning against the sun. That's how life is.


Alright. After that incomprehendsible-immature-twisted-cliche piece of junk above, you feel that I'm twisted, don't you? Say that you do. It will make me feel better. At least I can laugh to myself, being a stupid being like that. I don't even know what's making me so sad, so bitter anymore. I just feel the need to cough it all up. Now I'm done. Sueing me? That will be most welcomed. I'm twisted as it is. My fingers were just flowing with the rhythem of my mind, so it's jumpy. And I seem so apological. Yes, I am. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

P.S. 大好きだよ、星－クン

Another emo outburst. Yea, ignore me. I'm retarded

Anxiety... and the Aftermath

Still related to my two latest post. I know that he has a girlfriend. Even since I know him, from the very start. But why the feelings keep growing? Why the feeling still lingers after such hardships? I don't know. And I don;t know what miracles pushed me to confess to him, which I did. And it's in such a weird way, too. I thought I'll laugh when I remember that scene in the future, but unfortunately, no. Just by me confessing, a whole load of problems sprung right in front my face. And it goes for a whole week, draining my spirit and MP(as gamers say...). At least its now over and we're walking through our days as a couple. It's kinda weird, and a fleeting emotion starts to fill my heart since it's my first boyfriend, or something like that? Our relationship seems comical and I dare say, weird too (LOL) at least according to other people. Yea, we're still on the first level. Even maybe we're still in the zero level, same as nothing. But it's okay. I won't rush him, and I know he's now on his senior level and next year he'll go to univ. So it means a hell lot of tasks, lessons, studies, tests etc etc. Yes he asked me before about this, and I said I understand. So here I am, waiting for someone. Ah no, it should be waiting for him to come back :) Maybe you who read this will go 'WTF if you're in 'lovelove' mode go find some room!' or something like dat. I can't help it, so sorry for ruining your eyes, guys. I'll find something to share later, and it's probably about onemanga being closed or something like that. Hope you enjoy your day, and ja ne!

if you read this, this is for you Ryuusei <3

Lyrics for Megurine Luka - secret + MP3

I don't know if I'm a boy
I don't know if I'm a girl
I don't know why I was born
I don't know who's my mother

I don't know how I got alone
I don't know how I got mad
I don't know how I got mad
I don't know think I should get back

Tell me now that you really like the show
Tell me now that you really want to get high
Tell me now that you really like my style, oh
Tell u now that u are to commit a crime

U want this
Tell me how you want it to be

My mind, heart is broken
No one else
But u was going to understand my way
But from the day I found you babe
U falling into me

Tell me now that you really like the show
Tell me now that you really want to get high
Tell me now that you really like my style, oh
Tell u now that u are to commit a crime

U want this
Tell me how u want it to be

I don't know if I'm a boy
I don't know if I'm a girl
I don't know why I was born
I don't know who my mother is

I don't know how I got alone
I don't know how I got mad
I don't know how I got mad
I don't know think I should get back

I don't know if I am a boy

I don't know if I am a girl

I don't know why I was born

I don't know who my mother is

I don't know how I got alone

I don't know how I got mad

I don't know how I got mad

I don't know think I should get back

Tell me now that you really like the show
Tell me now that you really want to get high
Tell me now that you really like my style, oh
Tell u now that u are to commit a crime

U want this
Tell me how u want it to be

I don't know if I'm a boy
I don't know if I'm a girl
I don't know why I was born
I don't know who my mother is

I don't know how I got alone
I don't know how I got mad
I don't know how I got mad
I don't know think I should get back

MP3 link
Mediafire

Exhausted

Hello everyone :)
I haven't been posting for a long time, right? I thought I quit blogging half a year ago but... maybe I just can't let it go. I'll treat my blog as a diary for now. It's okay, right?

I felt so down today. I felt like I've done something very wrong that I shouldn't do in the first time. I felt like drowning myself into a deep well, or down deep in the sea, or something similar to that. I felt like I've posted 3 sentences starting with 'I felt like' (which I did). Sorry, my brain's in a mess right now. I think that I've made my crush mad, trolling him, and.. stalking him, maybe? I did that, and I'm terribly sorry for it. He won't read his though, so even if I posted thousands of apologies here he won't read it. My brain kept sending me false alarms about his affection to me. The longer I think about it, the more I realize that, being together is impossible at any chance given. I've wasted my time and tears thinking about it. He has someone beside him already, so why bother try? My mind's been telling me to confess, but that's just the same with suicide. I won't risk that relationship I have with him(and I think I'm destroying it now). I kept telling myself, he's faaar away from you. You're like the Icarus who wants to soar high to the sun. You'll fell, and without doubt, break many things. So, should I move forward? -sighs- Love problems are all confusing. They are essential in life, yet they cause many problems to rise. I need to refresh my mind. With what? Everything seems so dull right now. -more sighs-

Well maybe that's all. Thanks for the ones who read, even though this blog has become soo quiet.