Sunday, November 23, 2008

Talent?

Hari ini saya dateng ke seminarnya Paulus Winarno. The topic today is Maximize Your Talent. He said every people had a talent. I knew that. And than he said that to find talent is very hard.
But what are my talents? To be honest, I don't know. I don't even know in what subject am I talented in. News reading, since JHS I didn't get a single trophy. Debate? Just a substitute. So what am I talented in?
Do you know? If you do or maybe you fell like telling me what subject am I good in, tel me by leaving me a comment :D

Blue Mist

Saturday, November 22, 2008

So sad...

I'm desperate. So desperate.
Do I know why? Definitely yes. Why should I fall in love with him? Why should I sit next to the person he loves so that he will see her and give hopes to me? And that was just empty hopes I realize. Why should I fall in love with someone that I know would never return my love?
On that night I know something would happen, something would change. From the messages hat she has copied to me, I got the signals. But I keep quite. I don't want to ruin her surprise. Or maybe she already know, just pretending to be so mixed up with her feeling. I don't know which one is right. And here is it, the news' coming. my predictions turn out to be right. And I'm not surprised. I'm not jealous, because I know from the start that he doesn't even had a slit chance to like me. So I just go with the flow and let it go. Nothing is bad, just think positive, but I can't. I cried. I cried out loud that night, releasing all of my stress and sadness and jealousiness. Try to sing even my voice is hoarse and only a little bit of tone can get out. Cry like my eyes won't dry up. And still, no one will listen that night. Cried until I don't know the reason why I cried in the first time. I'm not dissapointed, right? I'm just sad because I know, I do this sacrifice for her. When maybe two people cannot sleep because of the euphoria, the other just can't sleep because of broken heart. Doushite kimi o suki ni natte shimattandarou? Why should I? I can't be as tough as other guys are. I'm someone who's fragile. Too fragile that she tries to keep it a secret. But that's the way it should goes. Just cry so you can forget about it. As Hikki's song said, the answer is mental toughness. You can't be fragile. And that's what I'm suppose to do now. Why can't I stand up alone just because one people? I'm sure I can. I don't know if other people call me mature or what, from my three friends, I'm the youngest. And that's the fact that anyone couldn't change. Including mere words. I don't care if you read this or not, but I just wish that you have a good relationship. And don't mind my long-forgotten feelings, it's over :D I just wanna talk to somebody so I'm not bearing it alone. Wish you had a good relationship for good :)
Please don't change your attitude to me oTL

I'm really really fortunate to find a friend like you :)

Blue Mist

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

An opening for my blog

First of all, I wanna thank you who have been visiting my blog. Yeah it's still really new, so it still need lots of addition and editing.
Back to Indonesian :D

Yaah, dalam rangka tugas komputer wajib skolah, saya membuat blog ini (dengan perasaan malas sebenarnya). Walaupun begitu ternyata tidak menghentikan urge untuk mengurus :P
Saya adalah murid kelas IXa SMPN 1 Denpasar nomer urut 17. Sebenarnya saya udah terlanjur nempel sama nomer 18, tapi karena Agnes Wong temen kita tersayang pindah pas kelas 2 TT maka jadilah kita kehilangan dia sekaligus naek nomer urut karena dia absen 2.
Baruu saja saya ultah, padahal saya suka umur 13 XD Soalnya umur ntu umur nanggung n masih normal kalo saia boong umur 12 :P lumayan dianggep anak-anak.
Saya demen sama namanya anime. Yang penting bagus, tapi sayangnya kondisi tidak memungkinkan untuk menjadi maniak anime, abis kuota saya cuman dibatesin 400 MB oTL
Singkat dulu ya :D kalo misalnya ada komen, pertanyaan dll, post komen saja di sini :D

Jia you minna! (campur mandarin jepang)

Blue Mist